To The Father
Nine years ago to the day my father left me with a smile, he asked if I needed a ride to work, I said no. At 9pm that day I learned that his mangled body lay in a cold drawer at Tawam Hospital, the victim of a mysterious road crash, the cause of which I still do not fully understand. His passing filled every part of our lives my mother and I with boundless stillness and an unquenchable yearning to hear his voice or see his smile. I struggle daily to remember his face, its weird what the mind does to what it unilaterally deems ‘old useless data’ that takes up too much precious grey-cell space. I have had a hard time talking about his passing, even writing about it, it’s not an easy subject to bring up without getting emotional. The span of years has done little to dull the pain of a sudden unexpected loss. His counsel is often needed yet all I have are dusty memory reels replayed in my mind during moments of still contemplation. I have sought to find the words to describe or eulogize hi...